I had myself a minor meltdown, today.
In a meeting with my boss.
And her boss.
I brought an issue to the Executive Director, regarding my treatment, on a few occasions, by my boss. It was his idea for the three of us to meet, in order to find resolution. On the particular points discussed, she and I did not have the same recollection of events. It became crystal clear that, no matter how right I felt, and how wrong I thought she was, someone had to bend.
Sometimes, when I bend, brokenness trickles down my cheeks.
Was I right? I felt so, within every bodily cell. But could my perception be askew?
So then, let us pursue what makes for peace and for building up one another. -Romans 14:19
I chose to concede that my lens might be cloudy. It was a difficult conclusion, and it was familiar, as well. You see, every time I go before my Lord, my own ways and opinions must surrender to His. I have to submit to His views, if I want to grow, or even maintain, relationship.
Where there is strife, there is pride, but wisdom is found in those who take advice. -Proverbs 13:10
Nothing can burst a dam like being broken before the Lord.
So, yes, I cried today. Although the experience was humbling and uncomfortable, it was cleansing. I don’t have to be right. I just have to know Truth, and follow Him as closely as I can. If I lag, or lose sight of Him… If the trail grows foggy or dim, His hand reaches back, and I take it.