I Have Suffered a Disappointment


I have suffered a disappoint-ment. I had a vision that did not materialize as I had planned and hoped. My enthusiasm, my passion was deeply affected. Untextured grayness craftily crept in to hide the horizon, and before I understood to take authority over it, it had stolen into my soul.
Attacks are not always outwardly violent in nature. The enemy doesn’t always ferociously charge the field, spewing abominable atrocities. No, sometimes he silently slithers through our minds, enticing us to grab onto his tail. Sometimes, we do take hold of it. Sometimes we find ourselves floating along a flowing current of something foul.
Praise God for the telltale stench of deceit! Praise God for hiding His glorious truth deep in our hearts, untouchable to corruption! Praise God for the surge of splendorous certainty, bursting forth from below the skyline! He is faithful! He NEVER leaves us to be overtaken by the tedium of disappointment and dissatisfaction!
“Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness, For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And He who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son. In order that He might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom He predestined He also called, and those whom He called He also justified, and those whom He justified He also glorified.” – Romans 8:26-30
And so, He calls us. He calls us to look at the monotonous gray skyline. He calls us to see it for what it is, and to watch. Watch and wait…And we do. We watch and wait because we know. Divine knowledge lives inside us! Out of that same place…that place where the Spirit Himself intercedes with “groanings too deep for words”, glory gushes through the gray in kaleidoscopes of coral, turquoise and flaming fuchsia!
The attack came in, creeping and silent, but victory fell upon it violently! The paleness of disappointment gave way to the light and its many-faceted magnificence!
What is disappointment for the child of God, anyway? Because we are His, we shouldn’t be so set that things go our way. Instead, we need to trust in Him and His way.  
Are you disappointed today, overcast by the grayness of it all? Watch and wait. Your heavenly Father is faithful with His new beginnings. Keep your eyes riveted on the place where you’ve encountered His faithfulness, and you will find it again, and again, and again, and again.
Have you not experienced His faithfulness before? Well, you must not know Him, then! Let me introduce you to the Creator and Lover of your soul! He sent His Son, Jesus, to die for your sin, to make you spotless and pure, when you invite Him and His goodness into your heart. He has made it possible for you to turn away from the world and toward a love that you never thought possible. Jesus arose from the grave and forged a path, just for you, that leads straight to the Father, in heavenly places. Invite Him in. Get to know Him and His faithfulness. Watch disappointment be overtaken, again and again, by wondrous hope and glorious expectation!

“I lift up my eyes to the hills. 

From where does my help come?

My help comes from the Lord,

Who made heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot be moved;

He who keeps you will not slumber.

Behold, He who keeps Israel

will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord is your keeper’

the Lord is your shade on your right hand.

The sun shall not strike you by day,

nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all evil;

He will keep your life.

The Lord will keep 

you going out and your coming in

from this time forth and forevermore.”

Psalm 121



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